Yesterday was one of those days. Everything that could go wrong did… it was with relief I got into bed especially knowing I didn’t have to get out of bed early since it was Saturday. So why am I awake? What time is it? Wow! It is 6.00 am. So much for my plan to sleep in! But, why am I awake? I am sure you are wondering too.
Well, it rained through the night and ironically; we also had electrical power supply through the night. So naturally, I am cold and the AC remote isn’t close enough which meant I had to get up to switch it off. Just as I did; I remembered that one of my children was in faraway Durham. I just left Durham on Monday and by every estimation it was chilly (by every estimation I mean my estimation).
Oh my God, I thought, is KK able to cope with the cold? Did he remember to wear his warm Pjs? Oh God, I hope his allergies haven’t kicked in with the cold weather, I mean how will he handle persistent sneezing and this cold weather? Wait where is my iPad? What is the weather like in Durham? How cold is it now?
I picked up my iPad to check the weather in Durham, and then I remember I had sent him a Whatsapp, Blackberry and text message last night. Did he even reply? Where are my phones?
Hilarious abi? Well, that is the story of my life this season. As a home maker, I now have to keep yet another home faraway in England so you can say in a manner of speaking that my workload has increased.
The way I see it, it doesn’t matter that he is so faraway, it still is my responsibility to ask him if they have picked his laundry and returned them; I need to be sure that when the laundry was returned it was complete and the washed clothes were clean. What did he even eat all of yesterday? Wait did he finish his homework yet?…
Yes, I am past a caring homemaker; I am now paranoid… because as the homemaker, it is easier when you are in control and are sure that everything you have to do or asked others to do on your behalf is done as you had instructed.
And all these are the reason I am wide awake even though the plan was for me to sleep in… I need to be sure that all my balls are kept in the air, and none has dropped or fallen to the ground. The question is how does one rest in all these?
What do you do when your family is spread across the globe and it is your responsibility to keep tabs on them to ensure everyone is well and keeping to the plan to push for greatness? How do you keep home on different continents and time zones? What can you do to keep away the exhaustion that has now typified your life and begins to overflow at 6.00 am on a Saturday morning?
I turn to my husband to ask him what I should do… should I call KK? Is it too early? He didn’t reply any of my messages last night… but as I looked at Mark, not even the frenzy I was in justified waking him up… the guy was resting! Yes, he was asleep and oblivious to all the craziness I was cooking inside me.
By now I realised that the only help I was going to get was the one that mattered the most. I turned my gaze to heaven and whispered, Lord, please help me… I do not know how I will deal with all these; I need you to teach me how to keep home in three different cities across two continents, please will you help me?
That was I heard him speak to my heart; He said, rest my daughter, I have helped you even before you asked me. Just rest, I have got this. In that instant, I realised that indeed I cannot be in control as much as I would like anymore, but then this is when I must not only learn rest, but I must practice rest.
Yes, I must practice rest; even when everyone expects me to know how KK is doing, and he is yet to respond to my text from last night, I have to practice rest by telling them by faith that he is well; not because I want to lie but because my father has got this.
With all the drama going on all over the world and especially around you, how do you rest? Sista, you have got to find a way to rest… make sure you sleep and make sure you rest in faith because, in the end, God keeps the home and not you.
Will you trust Him to do you good? Please rest, because in some cases you really cannot do anything else but to rest. Learn rest, practice it, whatever you do, REST.
Bidemi