laundry basket is full again? How many clothes The do these boys wear in a day?
Oh Lord, not the dirty socks!
I still don’t understand how boys can locate mud even when the school is surrounded with artificial grass?
I keep saying I will teach them how to do their laundry but always end up doing it myself. (Maybe I am being just a little bit hard on them, maybe not)
The last time I allowed them soak their dirty clothes, the entire pack of detergent was everywhere; face, clothes and floor!
I was just glad they didn’t throw detergent all over their baby sister who follows them around everywhere.
Ok breathe!
Inhale and tell yourself “a room full of dirty clothes will not intimidate me”
I can see Tony and Chris looking at me from across the room, wondering if today is the day their mother finally drops the ball.
I don’t blame them though, if I saw my mother constantly talking to herself and doing breathing exercises, I would have given her the same look my boys are giving me now.
Hmmm! Mummy I miss you so much.
I wish you could have seen your mini me, Diana, before passing away.
I am grateful though that you got to see and hold your grandsons.
I would have wanted you around for a very long time but…
Hmmm!
I better leave writing in this diary and get started on the chores around the house.
My mind is saying “get up” like a very noisy alarm clock; those very tiny clocks with wicked alarm reminders that keep hammering until every trace of sleep has left your eyes.
My body is saying, “Relax! Baby Diana is sleeping, the boys are watching TV, you need to rest now and recharge.
(The battle between my mind and my body is real!)
I think the body has won in this round though because I have no plans of moving from this position.
Maybe the truth is that I feel a little weary mentally and physically, and writing down my thoughts gives me comfort.
The boys have glanced at me again. I’m not sure if that glance is “are you okay?” or “can we have something to eat?”
With boys, one can never really tell.
I need strength for this chapter in my life.
The verse coming to my mind now is “God has given me a spirit of power, of love, and a sound mind.”
I need to remind myself that God has given me His Spirit to help me fulfill my assignment on earth.
What assignment could be more important than taking care of these children that God has given to me?
Sometimes I feel as scared as Peter when he started his walking on water training, I know I can walk on water because of Gods spirit in me but I am just so afraid.
God thank you for your Spirit, which gives me the power, the strength, the confidence, the ability, the grace, to do the consciously impossible.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
I will fulfill my purpose as a mother and mentor to my children.
I can see Diana turning on her bed so I guess break time is almost over for me. Ha ha.
Raise your head up Helen, God will never leave you nor forsake you.